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The Engine that Could
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wow--that is really deep--i knew mikey and just readin that brought tears to my eyes--it is so true too -- tahnks for puttin that on here [cheena_bean]
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2003-04-14 21:46:53 |
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I'm sorry
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I agree totally with Ana. I think that you're right Susan. You can't change what you did in the past but at least you've caught yourself and you're attempting to make up for what you've done. I'm not gonna lie to you, I was upset at the fact that we all thought that nothing was wrong but then 3 months later we find out there was AND it was on the internet the whole time. If you've got something wrong you should be able to come to your friends and talk to us about it. Yeah, we all get annoyed at times with eachother but that's what friends go through. This is the begining, we're all gonna start over and I hope things get better this time. I want to say i'm sorry for some of the things i said, i know they were hurtful but I got so upset and frustrated at the same time that i needed to vent and I thought it would be a good thing for you to hear what I had been feeling for a while. But I'm apologize now. I hope it's accepted. [Ashley]
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2003-02-28 09:50:42 |
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I'm sorry
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Susan I really glad your starting realize what you have been doing these past couple of days. Its good that you want to apologize. I think this was good for all of us, because we finally got the chance to say everything that we have been holding inside for awhile now. I would love nothing more then to start over with all of us. Me, you, sarah, ashley, jillian, and we would even have someone new, Amanda. But I don't know what will happen between you and jillian, I just hope the best. We all may not be able to be friends again like it use to be, but it would be nice if we could stop this whole internet diary thing. [Ana]
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2003-02-27 22:06:08 |
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Whatever
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If you really want to know how we all feel about this...check emlie_danielle's diary, leave a comment and then she'll get back to you. [read this]
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2003-02-27 09:59:30 |
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Whatever
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This is getting way out of hand. I think that if you're having problems then you need to talk to your so called friends face to face. This crap about posting it on the internet for everyone in this world to read is crap. I think you need to straighten your act up because in all honesty susan, you always talk about how you want to make something of yourself and how you can't stand how your life is. How's it going to change if you keep this up? Let me ask you this, what good is Haley to you? What good is alcohol all the time? Where is weed going to get you? How are you making it better by beating around the bush and hiding unsaid things from the people you say you care about? It's not helping and the only person who can make your life any better is you. No pill, no shot, not alcohol, or weed, or a boyfriend at that is going to change how you are right now. You have to step up and be an adult about things. I think people get so upset at you on here because it hurts to know that the whole time we all thought you were our friend, you were saying things behind our backs for the whole world to see, but yet you never told us how you felt. How are we suppose to react to that? [Someone]
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2003-02-26 12:10:46 |
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Whatever
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god guys leave her alone she didn't do anything wrong this is where you talk about how you feel get the hell out if you dont wanna hear about it like she said [Danielle]
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2003-02-25 21:55:52 |
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Whatever
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well the only reason i thought that you were mad at me was because of you sayin i was mad at you when i wasn't the only reason we didn't call you this last weekend was we did goto the pageant and you said in your diary a few pages ago you didn't wanna go so i didn't call you...and by the time we decided to leave you were already with haley so thats why we never called you... [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-25 21:51:47 |
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Whatever
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Susan, Yes, this world is about loving other people. How do you think you make friends? Your always suppose to worry about what others think and feel because if you didn't that wouldn't make you sociable and being sociable that means being capable of friendly social relations; enjoying the company of others. If you think your such a good friend then why are you mad at Jillian. The reason why you don't do anything with us anymore is because when we do stuff its all of us we don't just like to leave one person out and thats what your asking us to do with Jillian and to tell you the truth I couldn't do that. Because Jillian is so much fun to hang around, I love her to death. I really don't know why your acting like a little 3rd grader about all of this. If you didn't want anyone to ready this then why would you put this on the enternet????? When we were all friends you never wanted to do things with us, we would always call you and ask if you wanted to go out riding or something and you would say "no I'm just going to stay home today" and then we would say lets go drink and you would say that you couldn't. But I think its kinda funny that you can go drink with other people. Well thats all for now. [Anonymous]
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2003-02-25 21:48:54 |
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Whatever
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Yea well from what it sounds like you shouldn't have any friends you dumbass. I mean what the hell is your promblem its only your fault that you are sitting at home by yourself at nights so you are then forced to go hang out with a SLUT who no one likes (maybe thats why she is always Available) well i think that is all for now. [wouldn't you like to know]
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2003-02-25 21:32:17 |
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Whatever
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Hey Susan. I just started my own diary. I hope I get some better advice than you've been getting! =) Listen, follow your heart. If you like this guy, just tell him straight up how you feel. If he likes you, it was meant to be. If not, that doesn't mean you still can't be friends. You'll meet the right guy someday. If nothing else, you can be that little old lady that lives next door with her 10 cats. Everyone needs one of those! =) Cheer up! [Michelle_03]
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2003-02-25 20:54:30 |
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Whatever
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So u try hard to be a friend huh? Wow i mean i wish i had more friends like u. Two faced. Good Job! I mean if u have to put a diary on the internet just to make urself feel better that kinda sad. Some advice isnt always right. Remember that. I mean u have to fuckin clue who is givin u advice. Well here is mine--Two faced friends cant make good promises, and that sure as hell isnt the right kinda isnt the right performance. How do u expect to be a friend if u cant follow the lame quotes u put on ur diary? Thats food for thought isnt it. BITCH [mystery]
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2003-02-25 20:53:23 |
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Whatever
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In this diary, I know it is a way of expressing your feelings but have you ever thought that you might be better off to tell someone how you feel about a subject instead of keeping it in and putting on a two faced act. What good does it do to have feelings that no one ever knows about because because deep down inside you are scared of what other people are going to say or think of you? [Anonymous]
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2003-02-25 20:30:14 |
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Whatever
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you are really something else you know that?? You are a bitch. [mystery writer]
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2003-02-25 18:30:00 |
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Totally wrong
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Yes i am going to comment on this and you have no idea who i am and you're never gonna find out. No matter how hard you try. You don't even know me so what does it matter?? I think that you have a very depressing mood about you and that you probably depress the people around you too. But that's just my guess... Get happy. Life s a lot more fun when your not being bitchy. [mystery writer]
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2003-02-25 18:26:27 |
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Totally wrong
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Yes i am going to comment on this and you have no idea who i am and you're never gonna find out. No matter how hard you try. You don't even know me so what does it matter?? I think that you have a very depressing mood about you and that you probably depress the people around you too. But that's just my guess... Get happy. Life s a lot more fun when your not being bitchy. [mystery writer]
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2003-02-25 18:26:02 |
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What I sought
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listen up dont listen to what they have to say just ignore it all i liked your poem it was pretty good! :) the only thing i have to say is do step back and look at your life...dont look at the negitive sides think positive...i know you will try i will come back and check on ya later. [Danielle]
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2003-02-25 16:23:57 |
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What I sought
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wow! you really do whine and complain about your problems a lot. as i read through your diary entrys you complain an a lot! you think that you've got it ruff and everything but you are the one that puts yourself through it. you claim to like certain guys but yet they dont like you well have you ever thought they dont like you because you play off to be a big bitch or that you are whinny??? well maybe you should get an attitude adjustment or a personality change and maybe just maybe you could get a guy to actually like you. [mystery person #2]
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2003-02-25 13:53:29 |
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What I sought
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Here's my opinion on this whole thing. First off, nobody has you all wrong. We only assume from what you put on here and you make it sound like your life is absolutly unbareable, and to tell you the truth i'm surprised that they haven't assumed the worst since you've posted up stuff about gettin high and drunk and almost getting caught by the police. Stop feeling so sorry for yourself. Jesus christ, in all honesty it makes me wanna slap you for bein so down about a life that many would pay to have. Grow up, be an adult about things. That is the only advice I can give you at this time. And once again, if i were you...I'd step back and take a look at the big picture. You think you know the mystery person but trust me, You'll n-e-v-e-r find me out. :) [mystery person]
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2003-02-25 10:18:45 |
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Totally wrong
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no im not mad at you i have no reason to be. what you do is your business not mine, im not one to stop you from doing what you wanna do. yeah thats cool you and hailey hang out...good job. [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-24 22:34:49 |
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Listen Up!!!!!!
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susan_janelle, Sounds like you've got some major self esteem issues. Looking back at all your entries you don't think about those who tried to care about you and you just pushed them away by complaining about how bad you thought your life was. You have it good girl, extremly good compared to other people. Just because this Matt guy doesn't show interest towards you doesn't mean you need to act like this. Do you know what kind of label those kinds of girls get that smoke weed all the time and get drunk? Don't you want to make something of yourself? Think about yourself in a good way and do something that will change your life for the better. Think about it.....where's weed and alcohaul gonna get you except for a nice long visit to jail. Another thing, if you don't wanna hear everyones opinion on your entries (and that includes the secret ones without names) then why do you post your life on the internet? You're asking for help and yet you get mad when someone speaks the truth. [secretive]
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2003-02-24 11:48:52 |
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Listen Up!!!!!!
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sorry listen i wasn't trying to upset you thats just the way i see things sorry i didn't leave my name earlier its just i dont like using my name on the internet ya know? or at least my full name so my first name is danielle. sorry about earlier i hope you do have friends which im sure you do ya just gotta look for em, but for now i must get off i will check in on ya.... [Danielle]
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2003-02-24 08:02:28 |
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Let's See
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listen if you dont like the comments just ignore them thats what i do anyway...you put your diary on here for people to help you or some to even put you down but you have to take the good comments and let them help you to your best ability and let the rest go. dont let people make you change and let them walk over you be strong and stand up for yourself by telling yourself and others that their words dont mean much unless they are helping you! okay?! and dont go out and do things just for the sake of doing them, do things that benifit you and only you. and you will soon realize who your true friends are and become bold and daring, try things that you normally wouldn't do "live each day as if it were your last" im sure you can! :) i know you can. [Anonymous]
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2003-02-23 21:30:53 |
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I know
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Ok ppl I know that my diary title is spelled wrong and I really wish ppl would quit commenting about it. Yes I know I can go in and fix it. I spelled it wrong on purpose though. Because this whole world is wrong. Also I hate when people leave anonymous comments. If you have something to say then leave your name on it. And if you're not going to put your name on it then don't leave me a comment. Thanx!!! [susan_janelle]
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2003-02-23 15:37:03 |
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I know
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Um... you know, your diary title is spelled wrong. You can fix that. [Anonymous]
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2003-02-23 13:26:50 |
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Crazy
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go get fucked up! have fun b/c when you get caught it will fuckin suck! :P [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-22 16:59:46 |
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Crazy
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Actually I meant to spell it wrong. Because this world is just all wrong so why don't u just fuck off. Thanks for the update though!!!! :P [susan_janelle]
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2003-02-22 16:33:29 |
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Crazy
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you spelled "Cruel" wrong. [Shaun man]
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2003-02-22 16:28:40 |
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How would you know anything
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hey i will go with you tomorrow night to the pagent thingy [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-21 18:25:21 |
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Alright who opened their mouth
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If you like this guys why is it such a big deal if he knows? You need to chill out. You'd be a lot happier if you didn't feel sorry for yourself all the time. [Anonymous]
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2003-02-21 13:30:15 |
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Alright who opened their mouth
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Well... i have a few things to say about your diary...you, for one, need to get some balls and tell this Matt person that you like him and quit being a 6th grader and sneaking around about it! And the second thing is you need to get a better self esteem and get out of this depression mode that you seem to be in. I'm sure you're friends are sick and tired of hearing about it and are tired of babying you because you don't have a boyfriend... boo hoo. So grow up and suck it up! [mystery writer]
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2003-02-20 22:15:11 |
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Alright who opened their mouth
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nope sorry i didn't say anything about Matt! amanda i know knows about this site and jillian too so i dont know if maybe one of them said something....its a mystery, sorry to hear that its bein talked about! [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-20 16:46:48 |
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A great weekend
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hhhhmmm...the only people we talked to last night was tyler, brandon, dirty seth, tyler h., those asshole guys, ana, ashley, so its gotta be...one of those guys....hhhmmm.. well you like tyler thats a given though...so its gotta be brandon, tyler H. or dirty seth...and i hope to god you dont like dirty seth....so its gotta be brandon or tyler h. and tyler H is too young so im goin to guess Brandon??!! am i right [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-09 15:13:54 |
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Feeling a little left out
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thanks! :) [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-07 16:44:21 |
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Better
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**glad [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-05 11:05:02 |
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Better
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g;ad to hear your better! [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-05 11:04:35 |
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I don't blame them
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Listen susan like i told ya before i would always be around to bring ya back up or at least try to. im trying to be a friend to you its just you dont ever wanna talk about your problems and i cant read minds...so with that one you will have to help me out! i love ya just as you are and no one wants you dead! not even jillian as much as you may think. she doesn't no one does! not me not ashley, tammy, jillian, amanda, and whoever else you are freinds with yes i will say you do tend to get upset about things but hey if you learn to let things slide sometimes and actually stand up for what you believe in and just tell your opinion you will be a lot happier and you cant love anyone else until you love yourself always remember that dont find out the hard way like i did! find out the easy way and just love you for you and accept yourself dont bag on yourself and go along with what other people say about you if they say like for example "susan you have a big butt" say yeah and i love every bit of it...or somethin like that ya get what im sayin!? i know i dont talk to you at school a lot but that doesn't mean i dont want to be friends with you! you are sweet and caring person and i love you just the way you are! and you know if you ever need to talk to me all you have to do is come over or call me and i will listen to everything you have to say. you should know that by now things are hard now but listen that is a part of life things get tough but when they do you have to make the best of it! god put you through this for a reason ususally to make you a stonger person and with in time it will....just try thats all anyone ever will ask you to do try...the worst you can do is fail. [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-03 22:32:37 |
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Overwhelmed
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ooo who is this guy that you are talking about?! just curious....if you like the guy that should be all that matters not what we think anywayz....look at me for example.....aaron...you guys think a lot about the issue of him being 27 i dont i love him just the same, or when i dated mike vanilla!! omg you guys gave me hell about that! him bein younger and dorky but i liked him its just things didn't work out between us and no matter who you should happen to pick dont please us please you! :) we will all love you just the same as we always have [kit_kat_48]
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2003-02-02 22:36:00 |
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Excitement
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well actually your friend is really upset about not going to prom she just tries to be happy for everyone else! i dont know if i will goto the game or not but the rest sounds good. but i gotta get ready for the pep rally later! [kit_kat_48]
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2003-01-29 18:32:58 |
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I'm With You
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yeah thats a really good song! oh about this weekend whos stayin where? you stayin with me or am i stayin with you? well im sure we will figure it out! but anywayz im in class so i will talk to you later [kit_kat_48]
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2003-01-29 09:15:15 |
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A long time
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yeah susie i love you too sweetie and no im not goin to courtwarmin so i say you come spend the night with me or me with you whichever and we rent movies and eat fatting pizza and talk about how totally ignorant guys can be and all that good stuff! just kinda catch up since i haven't hardly talked to you in forver!! but i will talk to you later bout it! but not at school cause i dont want certain people to know what im doin! ya know?! just comment in my diary k?? later! [kit_kat_48]
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2003-01-28 19:15:10 |
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I get it
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OMG i dont hate you!! so get off that! yeah i told you that you could get over tyler if you want to but you dont so thats not my problem im tryin to tell you to get over him and stop hurting yourself but if you wanna keep on go ahead theres nothing i can do!!! and yeah my mom has called me a bitch before but ya know what?! oh well! i dont call my mom a bitch ALL THE TIME!!!! yeah i do when im mad at her! but thats it! well ya know that sucks that your mom gets you up at 9 that doesn't mean you cant stay out till 10-11 w/us and hang out! ya know!?! i like hangin out w/ya your fun to be around but you just always wanna go home right after work yeah im tired too but ya know i would wanna be around my friends even if its just for alittle bit. but ya know what im going to stop tryin i cant make you stay out and i cant make you do anything so im not going to if you still wanna go w/us tomorrow night that would be awesome! but ya know if you dont i will just call tony in the morning and we wont even bother you! oh and one more thing i do believe in that mushy love stuff!! okay?! believe it or not no i haven't really had someone i love except justin and i did love tony but ya know what?! i got over him b/c i KNEW it would never happen the same thing w/you and tyler it will never happen stop hurting yourself! please i hate it that you would drop everything for him and then he just goes back to doin whatever before that really pisses me off that you just let him do that to you but if you wanna get hurt keep doin it im not going to stop you anymore! [kit_kat_48]
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2002-07-29 01:14:36 |
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Down the s***ter
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listen susan you always wanna go home so theres not a lot we can do about it! i mean we are still your friends but you just always wanna go home so what are we suppose to do? and i was never mad at you for hanging out w/jillian i really didn't care that you hung out w/her its just i spent all my time w/justin so i felt alittle left out of our click. thats all. and you took it way wrong!! i wasn't mad that you were friends with her i just was mad at the fact that you totally forgot about me and i knew that once jillian had a boyfriend again you would come back and be my friend again and that is what is happening. I dunno what to tell you if you wanna be all sad and feel sorry for yourself i cant stop you but whatever. and about your mom shes being a mom dont take stuff out on her all the time! you call her a bitch how would you like it if she called you a bitch and told you to shut the hell up all the time?! and listen im not the only one who feels this way about everything ana does too and i think jillian might too! ive tried to be your friend susan! i really have but this whole week justin has been gone you dont wanna do anything with me you just go home! and thats fine just dont expect me to drop justin now that hes back to go do things with you! i mean im not mad or anything i just think you should know how everyone feels. [kit_kat_48]
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2002-07-27 12:51:54 |
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Dumped by my friends
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listen susan i dont know how good of friends we are anymore i mean yes we are friends but i dont know if its like it used to be but i just want you to know i am trying to understand! you said that you could tell jillian things that she understood better than your other friends im trying i really really am!! i know you say that she understands you better, but gimme that chance! please im not begging you to be my friend, im not begging you to tell me anything i just wanna be there for you when you need me! and i promise that im going to change! i know i spend a lot of time with Justin but i love justin and i also love you which means im going to try so very very hard to spend some time with you and some time with him, work and when school starts that too. i know things between us kinda fell apart and im sorry! :) but when he gets back from vaca. i will spend time with him but then you :) and im not going to ditch you if i make plans w/you i will stick to them! (if you're not working the day im not) if i make plans with him im going to be with him and i know you understand that. right? listen im sorry for what jillian did to you and i dont exactly know how you feel about everything. thats awesome that you had such a connection w/her that you could tell her everything! i dont know how you feel about me but im not jillian so what you tell me is up to you. but listen chicky im here for you whenever you need me if its 1:00 in the morning - whenever it is that you need me!! even if im w/justin, and you need me for some reason...do not wait to call me or tell me the next day i will come out and be w/you i dont care if he gets mad at me! he can shove it up his skinny ass!! :) *i know you laughed at that one* :) but *hugz tightly* i love you susie :) you are the best friend i have ever had im sorry i have screwed things up in the past but im going to be here for you from now until forever i promise you that! :) :) :) [kit_kat_48]
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2002-07-21 01:26:48 |
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Dumped by my friends
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Talk to her about it....Be really clear about whats going on and get an answer out of her. Try giving her a "guilt-trip" if you can....that might work...;-) [flapdoodle]
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2002-07-20 19:50:42 |
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Dumped by my friends
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*hugs* its probably the novelty of the situation =)..why dont u get a guy urself :D:D..that be fun ..come on lets go boy hunting :D:D hehe jk =P [suburban muse]
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2002-07-20 19:50:41 |
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Dumped by my friends
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Hey girl. I totally hear ya. I introduced my 'best friend' to my bf's roommate and they started dating. I thought it'd be kinda cool thinking the four of us could hang out. Yeah right. The only time I see her is one or two days on a weekend when she's at their house and that's it. She doesn't call me at all anymore. The funny thing is she lives 2 houses away from me. I thought she might get over that phase but she hasn't. She's been with her bf for 8 months and it's been 8 months since I actually hung out with her. She came to my house once but her bf called her and she left to go see him. I just gave up. If I see her at their house then it's fine but I don't care if she calls me anymore. She can kiss my ass. *♥ and hugs* [DaNieLsGiRl]
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2002-07-20 19:49:09 |
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It's Offical
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Hey hey, dont worry about him. You sound like way tooooo good of a person to let some punk make you feel bad. Believe me, one day you will find someone who will treat you right, until then, have fun and dont settle for anything less. People use other people way too much, whether it be for sex, material things, etc...., and it drives me absolutely cvrazy. I cant stand it. So keep your chin up!!! Its like that song by John Maier, Love Song For Nobody. The right person is out there, its just a matter of time before you find them. [Beach_Boy01]
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2002-07-11 21:31:01 |
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Guys are dumb
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yeah, i know i wish guys can just say they like u..so itll also take off a load of pressure..hah iono, just give it time..im sure he really does like you..but he's too shy.. good luck =) bbai. [sky x blue]
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2002-07-06 12:25:51 |
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